Time to stand up and be counted.... THERAPY!!!!

My name is Louise and I am a FOOD ADDICT!!!

My name is Lou and I have decided to start this blog as a form of what I would call 'therapy.' I am at a time of my life where I feel frustrated and angry and depressed alot of the time, my self confidence has dramatically depleted and my issues with food have spirralled out of control. Currently me and food ARE NOT FRIENDS!

On January 5th 2009... feels like forever ago now, I decided to change my life. I had had enough of sitting around and dreaming about what my life would be like if I was thin.... and by golly did I used to dream, asleep or awake it made NO DIFFERENCE. I imagined what it would be like to walk into topshop and actually try something on because I had NEVER been able to fit into normal clothes, the reason? I weighed 20 1/2 stone (287 pounds).

This was me in all my Glory:

I dont know how much I actually weighed when these were taken... but when I got to my biggest I refused to have photos taken from the neck down... so I still had a few more pounds to go at this point! haha! unlucky me!

So I decided to join slimming world, eat healthily and exercise. The theory to loosing weight is simple... consume less calories than you burn... if only it was so easy in practice!!!!! By January 2010 I  had lost 10 stone, weighing 10 1/2 stone (147 pounds).

Here I am looking slimmer:

I managed to keep all the weight off for the best part of a year, but I have now gained 1 1/2 stone,  I weight 12 stone (168 pounds).

So this is why I have started a blog.... I have developed a VERY bad relationship with food that is ruling my life and I need a release... I have read some other blogs and it has provided me with comfort as I know there are other people who completley understand what it is like to loose all control and binge and then feel like a useless fuck up afterwards! I dont want to be miserable... I dont want to binge and then 'extreme diet' I just want to be healthy and happy!!!!!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!!

xxxxxxx