Being Positive....

I used to blame every single bad thing in my life on my weight.... I didnt have a good job because I was fat, I didnt have a boyfriend because I was fat and blah blah blah, then I lost weight and I still had the same job and to this day I have never been in a long term relationship. Loosing weight wasnt the pot of gold at the end of the rainbow like I thought it was going to be, everything that was wrong in my life didnt magically get better like I thought it would.... this was because I was excusing the shitty crappy things in life on my weight and not actually facing up to problems. Being slimmer now has made me take a long hard look at my life and what I want to change about it and the answer is.. practically everything. This has led me to think I am no happier thinner than I was when I was fat, so why bother missing out on all the food I enjoy if it doesnt make me happy? I have come to the conculsion that actually there are LOADS of positives about loosing weight... I just need to remind myself of them everytime I want to eat cake and icecream.. so here are a few to share!!

1. I can buy clothes in practically any shop and I can wear lots of different styles of clothes.
2. I can fit in the seats on the roller coasters at alton towers and thorpe park.
3. I can walk up the stairs without getting out of breath, I am alot healthier!.
4. I can wear high heals without being in absolute agony.
5. I blend in with the crowd instead of standing out like a cow that has escaped from the rest of its herd!
6. I am not afraid to walk past groups of youths for fears of gettin abuse shouted at me.
7. I dont get hot or sweat as much as I used to.
8. I can run.
9. If someone looks at me I dont automatically think 'they are lookin at me because I am a fat ugly cow'
10. I sleep better.

There are probably loads more that are just everyday things that I dont even think about... like squeezing my car into a really small space in a car park and knowing that I will be able to fit between the cars to get out. (I once came back to my car and couldnt get back in because the driver next to me had parked so close... haha) My life is better now that I am smaller... I know this, because if it wasnt better I wouldnt care at all, I would just get fat again without thinking about it! This is why I am in a constant battle, constant struggle... because I know that my life is better... I just forget it sometimes!!!